The reason of my presence .

At my previous post I've said that I had a hardcore quarrel with Boyf .
Yeaps , we did & again in the morning we had a quarrel again then we broke up .
But both of us know we just can't live without each other , but both of our stubborn-ness brought this upon .
I sleep by letting time pass faster as I've got school later on . So I slept thru-out the whole day & He woke thru out the whole day I think .
Anyways , I woke up and went to school Yinyin was waiting for me there .
& She knows everything about it . I knew it (:
So she talk sense into it cause it's not only his fault but mine also .
Then during break time jimmy came to look for Yinyin , then Yinyin told me to call Boyf then try to sort out the problem .
So I called him out and he came in like about 5 minutes .
He then get of the car and pass me a hello kitty balloon and flowers , I'm lost of words at that time but still very glad he remember what I've said . Every words .
But Yinyin and I have to go back to class but when Yinyin went up her teacher chase her out .
So Yinyin and I went to the nearest kopitiam then ask both of our boyf to come her .
They were playing arcade , so we slack there till 11 then back home .
Daddy were like nagging at boyf saying he was wasting money on those things .
After I've bath we headed over to boyf house to sleep , I swear the whole night I just couldn't get to sleep .
So in the morning boyf sent me home and he went for work .
Today is saturday boyf will be working half-day but until now he haven't answer my call , must be sleeping .
Anyways , I also can't acc him cause I've got to go to my uncle house to celebrate mother's day .
& this what boyf wrote on the card with the flowers .
: Dearest Baby ,
I don't know what else I can do and since I can't get you the hello kitty balloon you mentioned, but at least I get this Hello Kitty balloon also and with the flower . I'm really sorry , and this is my sincerity that I can show to you by action .
Always love you . I will never leave you nor forsake you .

Baby , thanks for always giving in to me .
Sorry if I've doubt your love for me , I'm so wrong .
Ever since we met you had always be there for me no matter what .
You've kept your promise thru-out this 3 month , I hope you will still kept it for the rest of your life .
We still got a long way to go so , baby Jiayou !

Sigh , Just had a hardcore quarrel with Boyf .
Sometimes I just don't feel the love anymore , the care that he used to gave me .
Now it's like , Our daily routine would be like " Go study , Go sleep , Go work & Go eat " and during the whole routine we just talk alittle .
What's wrong with us now , today is our 3th monthsary and it's just so simple to just get me my hello kitty balloon and he just forgets all about it . The monthsary & the ballon thingy . . . . .
Was it so hard to just remember ?
Then we was on our way home to the multi storey carpark I saw this Lancer evo X then he would like say " get off the car and go xian him la " , like his image of me is such a bicth .
We've known each other for 3 month and this is how much he knows about me ? wtf !
It's 5am now , I just can't get to bed . Wheather to break up or just let it flows ?
Firstly , I love him . Ofcourse , duh !
Secondly , I can't let go .
& many more stupid reason can't think of it how , if anyones read this give me comments on my tagboard . Thanks . (:

Hello ! (:
As I said my daily routine would be doing housework everyday , revising for exam , going to school and sleep .
Boring ! But what could i do ? I need to get a job as soon as possible .
Cash flow problems coming on and on , but Boyf intending to get a Civic soon . Yippee !
After Civic he would be taking his bike liences then a Sp or 125z will be out soon .
Now must work double hard for all this to come true & I want that gucci bag soon or that coach bag .
This 20th I'm gonna get paid and would be heading down to reds to have my hair done there .
Then to Clinic to laser my scars away .
Seriously , I can't wait for all this to happened .
Tata , Studys here I come .

Hello ! (:
I've doing housework , revising for this coming exam .
Sometimes I just get so bored and I'll read abby's blog .
Just saw this and I really thinks what she wrote is so true .
http://www.heartsmeplease.blogspot.com/

TO : DEAREST DEBBIE.
(www.friendster.com/babysnowishot)
Debbie : Nnb. ccb. excuse me for using vulgarities on you, as talking t you, maybe i just have t lower down my standards t talk like how it should be like. im ashamed of myself. i can't believe i've such a friend like you. apparently, im not trying t degrade you. do you get my whole point there?i wasn't trying t insult you or whatsoever. but it was a fact you copied me in whatever i do. e.g - be it dressing (thou you can never make it-even gerek your exboyf told you so), the way you try t be, the way you talk, the slang you faked, the personality, the step gerek, phrases i used and plenty more. i sincerely wanted you t change t be a better person, &not t stray back t those bad influence in the past. hey do you think you can really make it out there? i once thought you did, till your sense ain't clear, i totally had a tragic perception of you. lil one, im only a year older than you, yet you're not thinking out of the box, &trying t indirectly insult me. thanks. that just show how immature you can get. Sweets, i had good intentions of bringing you thru the right path. till the time when i found out you totally betrayed me, i knew its all over, i have given up. The makeup you copy, no matter how hard you try, you still cannot make it im telling you. yes, i told you t get out from those twits life and be like me-a normal girl. But i didn't asked you t copy in whatever i do. do you know it literally pisses me off. you 've know me for long, you know i like t be unique. yet, you still tried. doesn't mean you're my good friend, gives you the right t do what you're doing now. getting pregnant at the age of 13 is already not a good thing, i advice you many a times not t go fucking around. yet? you've not known gerek for a week, yet within less than 3 days you fucked him. i know you weren't arouse yet you still gave in. doesn't mean love is all about sex and more sex. you've already lost the whole idea of sex before marriage, still it seems you don't give a damn at all. debbie, do you really think you can make it in life? do you think? i am not saying i am cool, you said it yourself. i do not deny, i have doubt you many time during our sisterhood, but think about what you've done? have you lied t me? okay, tell me what've i lied t you about? fancy losing your virginity at the age of 9 is such a disgrace yet you've the cheek t come lecture me about boyf. i love fahmi. so? okay, whatever you say about fahmi, i don't really give a damn. cause end of the day, i know he truly love me. tell me tell me, did a guy really love you wholeheartedly or did he just love your hole? I asked you once, you couldn't answer it yourself, how pathetic can you be? you deleting the photo comment has just came t a conclusion that you're guilty. you're afraid people would think differently of how you want them t be.
you telling your mom, i cannot make it like you. telling my mom why bother lecturing me about smoking. you telling my mom why bother if i have piercings or tattoo. you telling my mom off as if she doesn't know whats tattoo. hey what gives you the right t lecture my mom. damn you fuckheadshit. she's my bloody mum okay, thou i may bitch about her, after all she's my mom at least show some respect. what give you the right t actually tell my mother off. you telling my mom i was always initiating the bad acts. you telling my mom how good you are. you telling my mom how much i've made use of you. you telling my mom those piercings i had/have was me copying from you. you know what, you only make a joke out of yourself. you jolly well know tt my sister know's who are you yet you still dare go tell my mom such things? all we can do is just laugh and joke about you all night long. come on! you don't even have a piercing at all, neither a common ear piercing let alone a septum piercing or smiley piercing. fancy you claiming you pierce below your nose, you think i really believed!? hey, only a fool will. and thats you, falling into your own lies, getting crumbled in it. at least my mum's better than your mom. who doesn't even love you, could actually forget your birthday, having so many ex's husband and has already given up on you. you seriously think you're smarter than my mom? you know my mom was practically laughing at you when you lectured her about having tattoo as a art. you think my mom's unaware of that? i like it like how my mum is, at least i know there will be a brighter future for me out there so as it will be easier getting a job by having no tattoo's at all. i like the way my mum is and i thank God for her. So what if she disallowed me t smoke? i am glad. this show's she cares. at least i do experienced motherly love. as a Christian, our body is the temple of God, why go destroy it? i am so thankful tt my mum has been always by my side telling me whats right &wrong in life. jealous about not having a mom like mine? BANG THE WALL. i think you could just go stab yourself in the heart t numb the pain. i killed the prom queen in friendster? you're really one of a kind. you don't even listen t their songs. imitating them? wouldn't you feel ashamed of yourself? after all these you've back stabbed me, trying t be like me, being cheap out there, going geylang in the past t sell your body, it could only prove one thing-shameless. it hurts me calling you that, but ive got not much of a choice t. usDebbie fucked world? omg, its so me. just that you changed eat t fuck. apparently i see no reason not t downgrade you after so much had happened. drop dead gorgeous? oh no you're not. thats so a band from my fucking friendster. i have t say i am very proud of myself, at least there's someone who think tt im cool and is trying t be like me. but when the whole idea's you're the one, it totally turns me off.
getting back at the point of fahmi &jerry. i don't know what you got so agitated that day when i told you off on the phone. i was just trying t advice you not t time 3 guys. you're just bringing down your name, &many girls out there. i told you you could last long if you hasn't had the intention t bastard jerry. maybe i got you there. maybe ive hit the right point. look, show me how long can you actually last w a guy? you even got fucked by my ex boyf (when i hasn't even fuck him at all) , this show how naive you can be in this society. Look, so what if fahmi's asking me for cash at times, i understand he's poor. if i can understand he's situation why still bother? i will never know whats true love? if you said that i the past, maybe you're right, but definitely not now. i do treasure fahmi, you know how much i needed him. why still say such? cause you've nothing else better t say? i don't care how jerry is or how or like. Yea, so what? So what if fahmi's hotter than him, so what if fahmi's better looking than him? you needed t name all that down? so what? you make no sense in it.
I am not high class or how you put it, im just better educated compared t you. yes, i ended up in AVI a shit school from CHIJ but at least i still know how t get out there, unlike you. i didn't criticise you about how low class you can get and everything i could think i go gahaha about. why are you feeling pressurized? its just that you've never been t those places ive taken you t before ( your high class definition place) i assume you're trying t show me how cheap you can get by just insulting yourself.
You going around telling people xiaobee's a damn PLK. how about you? you even got pregnant before? At least xiaobee knows how t take precaution even thou not using a condom. how about you? Think. stop being impulsive.
All my efforts trying t bring you back t the right path, has just wasted.
Do what you like. you could call people t wack me, thats your number 1. but this will just show me how low self esteem you've got, and trying t crack a joke by making it the joke of the year (: . No point quarrelling w such a bitch.
i presume you are such a shameless alut and forever will be.
Please, return me my white havianas asap.